Up until the time I was 30 years old, I loved to travel. Jumping on a jet with a suitcase was as natural as a ride in my car. Packing was a cinch. And I could fall asleep easily on any mattress anywhere. Even the excitement anticipating the day I would depart was a thrill. Knowing I would be horse-back riding, renting motorcycles, and going to Clubs to dance the nights away, was all part of that excitement.
By the time I was 35, I was disabled by an acutely misdiagnosed Back vertebrae fracture that was made worse with every attempt a doctor or physical therapist would make to help heal it. I wound up bedridden for 5 years in chronic and crippling pain and spasms. And what followed upon that resembled in no way all that had come before. Every part of my life and identity as an independent, strong, free-spirited female was gone. Gone were my days of teaching and practicing Yoga, too. All fashion, style and whatever else had contributed to my self-image, obliterated. Friends whom I thought were friends, no where to be found. Just the Pain…and all the Time in the world to suffer it.
Fast-forwarding to today, over 35 years later, and for the First Time since those golden days of youth, I am planning A Trip. Yes, I have to call and make special arrangements for a mattress to somewhat accommodate my Back pain. I will need to carefully select what foods I can eat. And, I will probably need a small suitcase just for my meds. But, apart from these obvious differences, there is this One which is worth far more than all I have known of travel before. I will experience things as I have Never done before!! Since that altered course so many years ago, God has given me a new way of “See-ing” His Universe. A way that takes it All in; every speck of beauty, whether there is rain in the sky or a brilliant sun blessing the Earth with its warming rays. And with this kind of See-ing, there is also a deeply profound Gratitude for everything I See and will See . And for every person that I will meet. If I’m thinking of anything in anticipation of this Trip, it will be thoughts like these that will fill my heart. And, Praise…always Praise for God who offered me His World in place of the one I had lost, and helped me to become a better, more human person than I even knew I could be.
So, this Trip…with all these new moments, people and experiences it will bring…this Trip will be a thing of Wonder! A thing I believe has been ordained by God for my life exactly now. I could never have even consented to consider it if God had not fortified my Soul with Grace. That’s how much fear I had been holding on to. But here we are…and here we go!! Praise God!!!