Abba Macarius was asked, “How should one pray?” The old man said, “There is no need at all to make long discourses; it is enough to stretch out one’s hands and say, ‘Lord, as you will, and as you know, have mercy.’ And if the conflict grows fiercer, say, ‘Lord, help!’ He knows very well what we need, and he shows us his mercy.”
Yesterday was about Surrender and I took it seriously. I sat with myself pondering all the false support systems I had surrounded myself with to ensure a certain feeling of safety, like I had somehow secured for myself a place where I could feel protected. I suppose prolonged illness brings that fear to the surface. I know where everything is. I know I have my little attachments. My coffee cup handy, etc. I know how to connect with friends or buy stuff via the internet and social media. Nothing out of the ordinary, right? No terrible sins in any of that. But today, in This Saying, I stood accused. I asked God’s Mercy, like the Abba said to do, but realized that I still had not given up “relying on” any of those little attachments, just in case God wasn’t going to answer my prayer today.
Now I’m not saying we can’t have our favorite cup of coffee or any of those other things. What I’m saying is that our mind, when focused on those little things, relying on them, cannot simultaneously be as open and receptive to God. Divided attention weakens the will. It’s that simple.
So Today, I ask myself to try to be aware of how much of my psyche and my emotional self is invested in those things that seem so innocent, but represent far more than what they seem to. It is that level of investment, of reliance upon, that I challenge myself with today. It is of that level of investment that I repent and ask God to show Mercy.
May God Grant Mercy To Us All,
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2 thoughts on “DAY 18 – How Should One Pray?”
Theresa, Your investment will bring you right into the Sacred Heart of Jesus. If it does not I’m going to be in big trouble. I have many attachments since I have begun my journey with being home-bound and trying to live out my Eremetical life. Let us pray for each other on this journey to the Heart of the Trinity. Mark
My brother Mark – We are a people of the great cosmic dance whose life is hidden with Christ in God and whose expression of God-self is called to manifest through us as one of continual suffering and pain offered for the highest good of all people, in all their varying circumstances and every form of need, to the degree which is known by God alone. It is through God’s own mercy toward us that we know not how our simple lives and painful states contribute in any way to His Path of Redemption and as part of His Mystical Body. If we knew or even suspected, whatever good we had been doing would surely be lost to vainglory. God loves us too much to permit such contamination which would surely present itself as a grave temptation should the enemy of our souls be allowed to enter into this great work of transformation being worked through us.